I wanted to blog something about me this time but the moment I was composing myself to write…my mind gets filled with happy thoughts of Drei. Drei keeps me sane. Everytime I get cramped with work and I forget to even breathe, I try to stop and think of him then I’m all fine and happy and all pumped up! Haha!
But then I also feel guilty at the same time since I feel like I haven’t been paying much attention to my Chito. I am TRYing sooo hard to balance everything. I am hoping that those little sweet moments that we have will be enough for now. Hugging him in bed while he’s soundly sleeping after I give Drei to his yaya to drink his milk. Or those times when I goof around, tickling and pinching him while we’re stuck in traffic. After we get home, I am guilty of watching TV after playing with Drei rather than spending quality time with him.
I’m guilty of being too critical. I haven’t been giving him room for any mistake. I wanted him to be perfect ALL THE TIME. I know he is trying to keep up with what I want from him and I’m praying soo hard that I stop being much of a perfectionist, and wanting things done and being thought of MY way. I even question his thought process!! Sheesh, I can’t believe I’m putting him through all these.
This has bothered me for quite sometime. And now…writing about it, admitting it to myself and letting others know about it, is certainly my wake-up call. I’m just so lucky that Chito has been putting up with me. Whew!
Chito is my rock. I will surely falter without him. He’s so much a part of me. As much as I show him how strong I am he just doesn’t know how much I need him in my life. Yihee! I love you hun! Lol!
I’m lucky to have my two boys: Chito and Drei. They both keep me grounded and my constant reminder of what matters most…
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